My true taste of regret occurred when I was only 16 years old. I was the youngest in high school and felt completely stunned things that I did not control. This feeling arose directly from life in a family unraveling at the seams, but I was too young to understand what was happening. My emotions were tightly packed, so I grabbed things that I did Understand, and what I understood more than anything was swimming.
I was a competitive swimmer for almost my childhood. I pushed my way to the top of my school team, but I was afraid to be there. I will never know if I am afraid to fail, I'm afraid to be good or both. It didn't matter. I did not want to fully justify my potential, and the worst part was that I knew this.
By the time I reached my third swimming season in high school, I was tired. I was tired of stepping in one place, but mostly I was tired of the lack of efforts that I invested in what I loved. I could not trust myself enough to try to be my best, because there was no comfort in this. I bear a great burden because of my lack of self-esteem, but in fact I would not know that much, much later, when I couldn’t do anything else about it.
I spent all my freshmen and senior worshipers, working tirelessly to register my place in the lane with the fastest swimmers. I had problems with repayment. I had problems with my shoulders. There were even moments when I prayed quietly to break my leg, so I no longer had to practice.
But this is not swimming, practice, even races or other girls, it was a problem. It was me.
However, like most things, as soon as I finally understood this, it was too late.
In the middle of my youth season, I went to secondary school with several other friends (those who really wanted to lead the lane) and my then guy. I had a satin dress with a more knee with a velvet bodice and a suitable shortened coat. I pushed the fabric in the socks of my shoes with the patent leather TJ Maxx, because I bought them too large. The night should have been perfect.
But during the time, which is necessary in order for sneezing, everything has changed.
